Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Grief (a personal post)

This morning I woke up with the sun shining bright through my window. My head was pounding (I am getting over a cold) so I tried to block it out with my pillow as I buried myself further under the covers. I've been missing classes and procrastinating on assignments. I'm just finding it hard to be around others right now - to put on that fake smile (that I'm really good at) and say everything is alright because I really hate letting other people see those parts of me. I find it hard to focus on the work that I need to do. I haven't really spoken of the grief that I feel - the grief I imagine I don't have the right to feel. Because we weren't that close and we weren't related by blood. But I do feel grief - it wants to pour itself out and cover every inch of space around me and suck up all the air until I can no longer breath without it, and then, finally, until I can. But I try too hard to keep it contained and it builds up inside instead. It is hard to accept death. It is harder to accept when the one who is no longer there was so young, and good and had a whole life ahead of him only for it to be taken away so suddenly by a momentary act of senseless violence. You just can't say it was an accident or meant to be. To many it's just another sad headline - you see it, think for a quick moment 'how sad' before continuing to scroll through your twitter feed. I wouldn't blame one single person because I do the same; unfortunately, there are just too many like it. But when it's your own - when you're a mother, father, sister, aunt, uncle, cousin, child or the small village they grew up in - you grieve. And you ask 'why?' Because it just doesn't make sense, and it never will.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

On My Bookshelf

Just a quick update:

I have created a new page titled "On My Bookshelf" where I have begun curating my favourite books, and even TED talks. Go check it out if you need some reading inspiration, or are in the mood to watch an inspiring talk.

This page will be updated periodically.

Friday, March 15, 2013

25 Things You Don't Know About Me

The other day, while majorly procrastinating from my studies, I was reading a highly respected journal - okay, it was US Weekly - and I decided to copy their wildly popular* "25 Things You Don't Know About Me" column here on this little ol' blog of mine. Because, you know, it means I can procrastinate some more.

And I can only imagine how desperate you all** are to know more about me. After all, I'm a really interesting person. So here goes, 25 things you don't know about me:

1. I'm right handed, but I was born a lefty.
2. I used to be an actress, and I once lived in Toronto (for 2 whole months) and had an agent.
3. My husband and I moved in together after 4 months of dating and bought a house together after 6.
4. For 3 of those months we lived in a dorm room with a washroom and a microwave (And we didn't kill each other. That's true love.).
5. I invented Crumpilates. Really. It's a combination of Pilates and Crumping.
6. I love crumping. I mean. REALLY love it. I get a lot of stares, especially when I'm not in a club!
7. I once posed as a 1940's Vargas pin-up girl for a highly respected artist (he's sold paintings to George Lucas!).
8. I talk to myself. Like, all the time (usually I'm rehearsing scenes out loud) . It caused my sister-in-law to once ask me if I was talking to my food. That was a shining moment!
9. I'm always talking about what I would do if I won the lottery but I've never bought a lottery ticket.
10. I like eating weird food combinations (like cheese with peanut butter, or rice with soy sauce and mayonnaise - it only sounds gross, I promise)
11. I'm an introvert. Okay, those who know me are probably laughing right now, but I am. I am an introvert who has forced herself to be outgoing, but I still need to schedule regular solitude to refill the well
12. I'm afraid of failure ...
13. But I'm even more afraid of success.
14. I care too much what other people think, to the point that I let it hold me back far too often than I'm comfortable to admit.
15. I can sing in Arabic. Okay, a verse and a chorus to one song, but still.
16. I fall in love easily.
17. I cuss like a sailor, yet most people are always surprised when they hear me swear (I guess I look more innocent than I am :p).
18. I sleep with a stuffed puppy when my husband is travelling for work (TMI?)
19. Ever since I was a little girl I've wanted to be famous
20. My favorite colour is green.
21. I hate shopping (unless it's for books, of course)
22. I can date my paternal family tree back to 1600's France
23. I'm a HUGE musical theatre geek. I've seen Wicked twice!!
24. When I'm alone in my house, I youtube the sh*t out of my favorite karaoke songs and sing my heart out!
25. I used to get paid to sit around and do my homework (i.e. I was an extra on film sets)

Okay, so there you have it. 25 things you didn't know about me (and maybe didn't want to, but now you do. Deal with it! lol)

* I'm not the only one who loves this column, am I?
** All 7 of you! Seriously though, thanks for supporting my little space on the big-wide web. 

Friday, March 8, 2013

Writing by K. Esta + JukePop Serials

For the past couple of months I've had a standing weekly writing date with a friend of mine. We met through our husbands who work together, and when we discovered that we had a mutual love of writing and the same full day off once a week, that was that. When we get together we write, we have creative discussions, we watch TED talks, and we share and provide feedback on each other's work. These meetings are honestly the highlight of my week, and I'm feeling more and more creative as a result these days!

So, I now want to take a moment to let you know about an awesome new site called JukePop serials, and the WIP of my friend, and fellow writer, K. Esta that is unfolding week-by-week over there. The concept of JukePop Serials is pretty simple - each story unfolds chapter by chapter, and readers are able to vote for their favorites. Full Disclosure: to read past the first chapter of any story, you do have to sign up for a JukePop account (this is quick and painless, I promise, and they send e-mail updates very sparingly).

K's story is titled Dosterra, and falls within the genres of adventure, sci-fi and fantasy. If the following blurg grabs your attention, I encourage you to head over to JukePop to start reading. 

Dosterra is a wintry mining planet. With a monopoly on natural resources and transition technology, it is the undisputed leader of the Earth Origin Colonies. But Lexie has stumbled across something that threatens their dominance. What if their power was built on a lie? On the run, she’s forced to seek the help of Iden, a scientist with the Transition Regulation Centre, though his motives for helping her are unclear.

You can also check out her blog here

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Amanda Palmer & the Art of Asking

I don't know about you guys, but I've been really into TED talks lately; I've JUST discovered them (have I been living under a rock?) even though apparently they've been around for 30 years!! Wow.

I want to share one with you today that really resonated with me as an artist. Although the focus on the talk is about music, I still think it's a message worth sharing here on this blog because it's one that all art forms can embrace. I stumbled upon it the other day and I just think this woman is AMAZING, and she asks a very thought provoking question: Instead of asking how we can make people pay for music, we should be asking - how do we LET them?

Mind. Blown.

Enjoy, and let me know in the comments if this TED talk resonated with you (or if/why it didn't)!